A poem by Autumn,Smirking Girl

If you turn the pages of the past
you'll often find a story without an ending
no 'Amen' to say it's over
all you have is a name you would rather forget
but it isn't over yet
not when you've built your castle out of barricades
to guard against the fools you beat so long ago
long before you even knew they were fools
but even longer since you saw a god in anyone
and for such an independent soul
you sure wanted to believe in someone else
can you blame them that you hate them
smirking girl, you ask too much
who said anyone would show you the way
who said anyone would care what you'll do someday
You're all alone here
you can't buy what isn't there
You're all alone here
you can't change what isn't fair
how obstinate you are
you can't forgive them
all they did was make you cry
on every day that passed you by
how wise they were to know you didn't like them
how foolish they should have to ask you why

Fuck.this.shit.

I am just too sad for this,I am just too sad. I hate it when you do whatever the fuck you want,not even consulting me or what I want. I asked you to do something simple,what did you have to go ahead and do whatever the fuck you wanted? Is it that hard to keep a promise to me,supposedly the one you love? I feel like crying for believing in you so much,I feel like dying 'cause you don't wanna change at all. You're selfish and unkind,you're bad to me and I always shut the fuck up for the sake of whatever it is that is between us now. Fuck this,I hate being used and pulled around like a freaking stupid bitch.

Today's our anniversary

Te-am asteptat atat de mult sa te intorci la mine incat imi vine sa tip cand totul merge prost. De ce te porti cu mine asa? Crezi ca eu vreau sa ma enervez constant si sa ne tot certam? Ce s-antamplat cu tine? Erai atat de simplu si dulce,acum duci totul in extrem si paranoia? Ce rol are? Iti place sa ma seci,ma lasi fara energie,normal ca nici la scoala nu pot sa ajung,imi place sa dorm si adorm prea tarziu. Cateodata stau si imi imaginez cum ar fi fost daca o lasam balta,si nu veneam sa te recastig,imi zici ca defapt oricum am fi fost aici,cum poti sa ma minti? "Te iubesc"... pauza,nu e ca si cum ai vrea sa imi zici ceva inapoi,tu nu,tu preferi sa taci si sa pleci de langa mine. M-arunc in patul tau astept sa te intorci,in timp ce stau mintea mi-o ia razna,ce e cu tine iubitule? Iti place sa ma ranesti?
Ma-ntrebi mereu ce e cu mine,de ce nu vreau sa iti spun ce e in mintea mea,acum sincer dragule,cum ai reactiona la asa ceva? Vreau doar sa te intorci,tu,fraiere,ce pot sa fac?
Credeam ca voi fi asa bucuroasa cand vei aparea din nou in viata mea, de ce nu vrei? Te rog fa ceva.