Thy poem with no name

How many times did you say I love you
To a girl as innocent as your eyes claim to be?
But was the sun that sat upon my face
To bright for you to see the place
On my untouched skin
Would you kiss me again
Just to let me bite your lips
Until they turn the colour of the midnight candle lights
You putred knight
Dressed in black with silent lips
Do you still have a heart under your armored body
Or do you want to keep it hidden
So I cannot reach in and capture
Your only proof of being human
Would you come in if I call you
Or will you think that I am joking
And surely I'll betray you
You couldn't change the past the crawls inside of you.
And now your weak
And when I walked away
You smiled
Why didn't you stay?
Was it because you couldn't bare to see me happy?
And though I will not change my mind
I know that you are broken.
And as my heart stops
I will say your name
And I'm the one to blame.

Romanta Atingerii

O blanda,nemiscare -
Cotinua uitare
Aluneca in mintea mea
Tacerea mea -
Visare

Apusul zgarie pe cer
Culoarea adorata -
De tine,suflet efemer
Ce mergi pe drum
Uitata -

Cum de-ai batut la usa mea?
Stiai ca vin
Sau ma abtin -
Sa iti descriu durerea.

Poti sa atingi pe cineva
Ce nu s-a pus in fata ta
Si-asteapta dezlegare?
Exact ca tine-ascult
Culeg -
Amintiri,descarcare.

Te temi de ce te-asteapta aici -
Sau stiu ce vrei sa zici.
Ca te iubesc
Apusul plin de fum
Ce-l dezgolesc
In asteptare -
Nepasare
Contemplare -
Te rog sa pleci
Si sa nu-mi zici
De ce mi-ai stat in cale.

Human

I see
I cry
I love
I care
I want
I was...
The only one that can give love to any man
The way hw wantes to
It's me
And I can't breathe
It's me?
The love I give
Can only prove
That I can serve the way you want
Every filthy thought
Every passionate dream
Every killing break
And all I say is
Feel
The beating of my heart
The way you press your lips against me
Is that what you want?
And I can see through your eyes
Even if you can't believe
I know all your dreams
All your fantasies
Do you want me to stop
Human?
Ofcourse I can go on
Make you explode
And call me again
Just for the heck of it.
No,I won't answer the phone
This time
I'm the one who's playing
You could never have me back
Cause I'm not your usual
Sad
Incomplete
Compassionate
Human!
You could never relly on me now
For I have no feelings
And I'm unhappy
And if that's what I feel
You know
My love,
That you will die
As easy
as my soul revived
And my heart healed
And my soul bleeds
I could kill you
Command you
Believe you
But I will never love you.
You poor inesthetic paranoid innocent human
I would never
Love you
You make me laugh
Why would you think I am the one?
I am alone
I don't belong
Now as I cae
I only ask
Do you believe in love,human?

Breathe

A noise
That's burning in my mind
Filled me with fear
And you don't even care
Right now that I'm the one who's calling
The name I never said
I wanted to forget your face
Your voice,so I cannot regret
That you were never there.
The kisses you gave me
Underneath the balcony you climbed
And now you dare to call my name
As the best friend you ever had
I never want to see the face
Of a man who lied so pure
That almost made me cry.
And as I dry my tears in shame
I want to tell you why
You were the sparkle in my eyes
For oh,so many days
And that you coloured my whole life
It's sad,you weren't honest.
I don't want you to suffer
But I want you to pay.
You know...
That because of you I'm dead inside.
For I don't feel for you
But hate that wants to eat our souls
And yet you said you want me to forget
And love again...
I will just wait for you to see
That I can say a lie
As easy as you said it could be.
As easy as the wind
That once was all I've known of you.
You were as easy to forget
As you were to control
My mind will never see again
The same man in your eyes
And all my feelings
That were drained
Will never forget your lies
My one true love
That never was
But a bag of desire
He said he saw perfection in me
Just to get my clothes off,didn't he?
You should've asked if I would want
To be the one you ravage
And if my body wasn't enough
Why did you choose my heart
To play your filthy games
And make the same mistakes
You would've done
With someone else
You never said "I love you"
As a proof of your feelings
You wanted more from me
My new beginnings
Were for you so pure and yet you demanded
To see my eyes burn
And my lips shiver
Even though I never showed you gratitude
You know that I'm longing.
And yet I fear
Of what You said and what you felt
Is that to much to believe?
Do you believe me when I say I hate your guts?

You little angel that I fear
You pure condition of a man
Do you believe in love the way you said it is?
I know you don't
You couldn't handle all my shivers
All my dreams
And all my devotion
You filled your head with adoration
From yet another lost human
I do believe I'm what you said
Ofcourse you lied but that just made me more interested
In your kind..
Did you hold my hand in desperation
Did you want me to let go
For you to be alone
And make it more easy?
I say again that I control
My shivers with a smile
Did you believed me when I said
You were the only one?
Oh no I didn't want you to leave
But was my choice that important?
As a blessing
You drained poison out of my wounded soul
And though I thought you would kill me
You kept it for yourself
I saw you dead.
Your white flesh so cold and depressing
Brought a smile on my face
Are you perfect now
You filthy pathetic man?
Are you all you ever wanted to be
Are you complete now?
No I don't wanna feel again
The hate I felt with you
For I have seen what hate can do
And all I want is you
All my fear just ran away
In the same time
Your heart-beat stopped...
And I am not ashamed
That I killed the man I loved
Did you really think you could change me?
Damage me?
And that's why you had to leave?
Were you my hearts revenger
And my souls mistake?

Oh how I cherish now

The moment you touched the moon for me.
And didn't let me down
How I feel you holding me
And though I wanna stop
I know I'll never find a man
As perfect as your kind
You said you couldn't leave me now
But even if my love was true
You didn't want to make me feel
The fury of your soul
Please
Just leave
And let me live
The life I always wanted
And I will never regret
So pure and so delighted
When I saw your eyes close
And your lips turning white
The moment you lost your breath
For the one
Of your pathetic only kind
I left and now I live again
Alone
And so completed
I hate the man that changed my mind
My soul
And my hearts rythm

Mady:]

Tainted

I was your new morning breeze
Your little pit of fire,
Your academic dreams
That filled you with desire.
And yet I cannot breathe
For I have found again
A beauty...
And yet I seek another kind of power
That will bring you down
Cause you're the one who suffers...

Here in my grave
I only see my name
Another kind of game
Another kind of pain
I will not pay the price
For you so you can break my dreams
I will just seek another way.
I will not pay
I will not say
The you were everything for me
And now I do not care
That autumn came with you again
And I was not prepared
To face another love
Another lie
And yet another killing joke,
That was if I could say
You're a pathetic jerk.
That lied and filled his mind with lust
And now he's weak and wanting
Demanding...
The one ...
That left him there
But I dare not say the name
That's buried in my head
Another kind of game
Another kind of pain.

I didn't cry for you
The person that's in front of me
I cried cause you betrayed my trust
And oh,I cannot say
What troubles me again
And now I seek protection
The only one that filled my heart
With love and adoration
"I'm better off without you
And you're better of without me " you said.
But what made you the one you are today?
My midnight sleep catastrophy
I want to see your eyes when I...
Complete my dreams and leave.
With pleasure and beginnings
For I had told you from the start
That I was not your easy love
Even though you couldn't stop
I feel my heart full of desire
And how I wish to love again
You were a man who loved and lost
I am the one that never felt
A word out of your lying mouth
That killed my innocence
And blackened my desperate heart
That once had loved a man
Whose eyes were never mine.

Mady:]

Oare?

Nesters,nevazut,necrezut

Buzele-mi tremura,cine esti?

Esti tu,De unde-ai aparut?

Musti din mine,ma lovesti.

Prea puternic,nu te-opresc.

 Usor,cad,ma-ngrozesc

Te iubesc?

Eram singura,pierduta pe un drum pe care nu mai vreau sa merg,si oare pe tine ce te-a adus langa mine acum? Si oare de ce-mi spui ca ma iubesti? Eu nu stiu de ce luna vine pe cer,nu stiu de ce vrei sa pleci,nu stiu de ce m-ai lasat sa ma incred ca un orb indrumat pe trotoar. Uite unde am ajuns si am vrut sa cred in tot ce zici,mi-ai promis o lume mai buna si mi-ai promis ca e ultima mea lacrima,am fost eu atat de naiva? sau tu atat de orb? Si ma intreb,acum eu iubesc? Ce simt eu acum e vag si ciudat si nu cred ca-s convinsa de mine. Vreau ca tot ce ma rupe acum de realitate sa dispara sau sa fuga la tine,vreau ca zambetul tau pur si accentuat sa plece din imaginea mea. Perfectiunea,am gasit-o odata. Nu e vorba de aspect,de vrajeli sau de naivitate,e vorba de personalitate,sentimente,sarut,atingeri. Am simtit-o odata,credeam ca iubesc oare e atat de greu sa ma crezi cand iti zic "te urasc"? Nu fi prost,te iubeam,ramai cu amintirea,asta ai vrut nu? Sa ma ai doar intr-o amintire,te urasc,esti patetic,esti figura perfecta a unui om slab si penibil. Te iubesc? Nici vorba. Ai plecat,nu imi pasa,esti doar un baiat,obisnuit,pierdut.. si nu-mi pasa. De mori,de traiesti,de iubesti,oare cine o sa-ti fie aproape cand lumea se darama,cand prietenii te lasa si familia-ti moare? Puteam sa te ajut dar pacat,nu imi pasa. Si din tot ce mi-ai spus si tot ce ai facut am ramas cu un singur lucru,credinta si speranta ca o sa iubesc. Si asta intreb eu acum,oare iubesc?

Pentru ca-l vad si inima-mi bate,il sarut si mintea imi fuge,il tin de mana si nu vreau sa-i dau drumu,dorm langa el si nu vreau sa plec dimineata. Te iubesc? Asta simt eu pentru tine acum? Daca e asa,si tu imi vei creea aceeasi impresie si ma vei minti,ma vei trada,ma vei lasa... vei fi ultima persoana pe care eu.. o voi mai iubi vreodata. Dovedeste-mi ca e o lume mai buna,ca e dragoste,ca tot ce el mi-a aratat si mi-a furat exista si ca.. nu pleaca.

Te iubesc? 

You

I had a dream,you were in it. After a few weeks it died and with it I died. Heart broken,I can't feel anything,but I know... I will go on but I'll never forget and you, you will cry.. And as my dream faded away I still see your face everywhere I go,everywhere I look there is a piece of your image and it's destroying me. I am dead but... I can still feel the pain you left with me. How I wish you could feel..how I wish you would see the true me,I don't hate you,I hate myself 'cause I wasn't enough for you. You will... die. And love..? Love is something I don't wanna feel,love is a myth. Love can kill.. don't be fooled or you will be disappointed and you don't want that. Love... doesn't exist and I am prepared to live in a world like that. 

A Poem by Autumn,Didn't

I didn't want the details
Of your pathetic life
How you wished for a lover
And wouldn't mind a wife
I didn't want to picture
A man so sad and weak
I cherished my illusions
Until I heard you speak
I didn't want to ponder
The reasons you confessed
Your torrid past relations
I never would have guessed
That I would seek my refuge
For that I'm angry still
I didn't want to know you
And now I never will

Am fost in prezent

Era un vis,un cer,un drum,o lacrima. Era iubire,durere,gelozie,ura,incredere,dorinta,pasiune. Era totul si era nimic. Eram eu,tu si un perete. Era un pat,noi si un necunoscut. Era muzica si timpul s-a oprit atunci. Timpul s-a oprit in loc,nu te-as trada,nu te-as minti,nu as profita. Defapt nu ti-as face ra in nici un fel,te-as aprecia,te-as pastra,dar stiu ca vei pleca. Am crezut ca visez,era ireal,cand totul sa izbit de realitate si am picat din cer am realizat defapt cine suntem. Doua parti necunoscute,doua suflete pierdute, doua drumuri incurcisate. Ma doare si ma intreb tot eu am gresit? Tot eu am reusit sa te indepartez? 

Un sarut se termina prea repede acum,am uitat sa oprim timpul. Ce ironic. O atingere,cat am asteptat-o,dar de ce nu o simt la fel?

Te iubesc,am spus,spun din nou,te iubesc,auzi,zambesti. Cate lucruri imi spui cand ma privesti,vai cat de mult as vrea sa stiu ce vrei defapt,ma folosesti?
Ma lasi sa cred ca e real,ma faci sa cred ca totul o sa fie asa dar de ce tu esti diferit? Oare ea te-a schimbat? Oare ai uitat ca ma iubesti? Oare ai mintit? Simt tot,vad tot si cad in gol

Nu ma lasa sa plec,te-am rugat sa ma crezi,vreau sa ma iubesti si sa uiti de lumea din jurul tau. Spune-mi,simti ca ma iubesti? Simti ca vrei sa fi cu mine? Uiti cine sunt?
Sufletul urla in mine,te rog ajuta-ma sa plec de aici. Amintiri inghetate de timp,ma doare si nu-ti pasa. Te iubesc,ma auzi?

Poem by Autumn,Ghost

Did you know sometimes it frightens me
when you say my name and I can't see you
will you ever learn to materialize before you speak
impetuous boy, if that's what you really are
how many centuries since you've climbed a balcony
or do you do this every night with someone else
you tell me that you never leave
and I am almost afraid to believe it
why is it me you've chosen to follow
did you like the way I look when I am sleeping
was my hair more fun to tangle
are my dreams more entertaining
do you laugh when I'm complaining that I'm all alone
where were you when I searched the sea
for a friend to talk to me
in a year where will you be
is it enough for you to steal into my mind
filling up my page with music written in my hand
you know I'll take the credit for I must have made you come to me somehow
but please try to close the curtains when you leave at night
or I'll have to find someone to stay and warm me
will you always attend my midnight tea parties
as long as I set your place
if one day your sugar sits untouched
will you have gone forever
would you miss me in a thousand years
when you will dry another's tears
but you say you'll never leave me
and I wonder if you'll have the decency
to pass through my wall to the next room
while I dress for dinner
but when I'm stuck in conversation
with stuffed shirts whose adoration
hurts my ears, where are you then
can't you cut in when I dance with other men
it's too late not to interfere with my life
you've already made me a most unsuitable wife
for any man who wants to be the first his bride has slept with
and you can't just fly into people's bedrooms
then expect them to calmly wave goodbye
you've changed the course of history
and didn't even try
where are you now
standing behind me
taking my hand
come and remind me
who you are
have you traveled far
are you made of stardust too
are the angels after you
tell me what I am to do
but until then I'll save your side of the bed
just come and sing me to sleep