Tainted

I was your new morning breeze
Your little pit of fire,
Your academic dreams
That filled you with desire.
And yet I cannot breathe
For I have found again
A beauty...
And yet I seek another kind of power
That will bring you down
Cause you're the one who suffers...

Here in my grave
I only see my name
Another kind of game
Another kind of pain
I will not pay the price
For you so you can break my dreams
I will just seek another way.
I will not pay
I will not say
The you were everything for me
And now I do not care
That autumn came with you again
And I was not prepared
To face another love
Another lie
And yet another killing joke,
That was if I could say
You're a pathetic jerk.
That lied and filled his mind with lust
And now he's weak and wanting
Demanding...
The one ...
That left him there
But I dare not say the name
That's buried in my head
Another kind of game
Another kind of pain.

I didn't cry for you
The person that's in front of me
I cried cause you betrayed my trust
And oh,I cannot say
What troubles me again
And now I seek protection
The only one that filled my heart
With love and adoration
"I'm better off without you
And you're better of without me " you said.
But what made you the one you are today?
My midnight sleep catastrophy
I want to see your eyes when I...
Complete my dreams and leave.
With pleasure and beginnings
For I had told you from the start
That I was not your easy love
Even though you couldn't stop
I feel my heart full of desire
And how I wish to love again
You were a man who loved and lost
I am the one that never felt
A word out of your lying mouth
That killed my innocence
And blackened my desperate heart
That once had loved a man
Whose eyes were never mine.

Mady:]

Oare?

Nesters,nevazut,necrezut

Buzele-mi tremura,cine esti?

Esti tu,De unde-ai aparut?

Musti din mine,ma lovesti.

Prea puternic,nu te-opresc.

 Usor,cad,ma-ngrozesc

Te iubesc?

Eram singura,pierduta pe un drum pe care nu mai vreau sa merg,si oare pe tine ce te-a adus langa mine acum? Si oare de ce-mi spui ca ma iubesti? Eu nu stiu de ce luna vine pe cer,nu stiu de ce vrei sa pleci,nu stiu de ce m-ai lasat sa ma incred ca un orb indrumat pe trotoar. Uite unde am ajuns si am vrut sa cred in tot ce zici,mi-ai promis o lume mai buna si mi-ai promis ca e ultima mea lacrima,am fost eu atat de naiva? sau tu atat de orb? Si ma intreb,acum eu iubesc? Ce simt eu acum e vag si ciudat si nu cred ca-s convinsa de mine. Vreau ca tot ce ma rupe acum de realitate sa dispara sau sa fuga la tine,vreau ca zambetul tau pur si accentuat sa plece din imaginea mea. Perfectiunea,am gasit-o odata. Nu e vorba de aspect,de vrajeli sau de naivitate,e vorba de personalitate,sentimente,sarut,atingeri. Am simtit-o odata,credeam ca iubesc oare e atat de greu sa ma crezi cand iti zic "te urasc"? Nu fi prost,te iubeam,ramai cu amintirea,asta ai vrut nu? Sa ma ai doar intr-o amintire,te urasc,esti patetic,esti figura perfecta a unui om slab si penibil. Te iubesc? Nici vorba. Ai plecat,nu imi pasa,esti doar un baiat,obisnuit,pierdut.. si nu-mi pasa. De mori,de traiesti,de iubesti,oare cine o sa-ti fie aproape cand lumea se darama,cand prietenii te lasa si familia-ti moare? Puteam sa te ajut dar pacat,nu imi pasa. Si din tot ce mi-ai spus si tot ce ai facut am ramas cu un singur lucru,credinta si speranta ca o sa iubesc. Si asta intreb eu acum,oare iubesc?

Pentru ca-l vad si inima-mi bate,il sarut si mintea imi fuge,il tin de mana si nu vreau sa-i dau drumu,dorm langa el si nu vreau sa plec dimineata. Te iubesc? Asta simt eu pentru tine acum? Daca e asa,si tu imi vei creea aceeasi impresie si ma vei minti,ma vei trada,ma vei lasa... vei fi ultima persoana pe care eu.. o voi mai iubi vreodata. Dovedeste-mi ca e o lume mai buna,ca e dragoste,ca tot ce el mi-a aratat si mi-a furat exista si ca.. nu pleaca.

Te iubesc? 

You

I had a dream,you were in it. After a few weeks it died and with it I died. Heart broken,I can't feel anything,but I know... I will go on but I'll never forget and you, you will cry.. And as my dream faded away I still see your face everywhere I go,everywhere I look there is a piece of your image and it's destroying me. I am dead but... I can still feel the pain you left with me. How I wish you could feel..how I wish you would see the true me,I don't hate you,I hate myself 'cause I wasn't enough for you. You will... die. And love..? Love is something I don't wanna feel,love is a myth. Love can kill.. don't be fooled or you will be disappointed and you don't want that. Love... doesn't exist and I am prepared to live in a world like that. 

A Poem by Autumn,Didn't

I didn't want the details
Of your pathetic life
How you wished for a lover
And wouldn't mind a wife
I didn't want to picture
A man so sad and weak
I cherished my illusions
Until I heard you speak
I didn't want to ponder
The reasons you confessed
Your torrid past relations
I never would have guessed
That I would seek my refuge
For that I'm angry still
I didn't want to know you
And now I never will

Am fost in prezent

Era un vis,un cer,un drum,o lacrima. Era iubire,durere,gelozie,ura,incredere,dorinta,pasiune. Era totul si era nimic. Eram eu,tu si un perete. Era un pat,noi si un necunoscut. Era muzica si timpul s-a oprit atunci. Timpul s-a oprit in loc,nu te-as trada,nu te-as minti,nu as profita. Defapt nu ti-as face ra in nici un fel,te-as aprecia,te-as pastra,dar stiu ca vei pleca. Am crezut ca visez,era ireal,cand totul sa izbit de realitate si am picat din cer am realizat defapt cine suntem. Doua parti necunoscute,doua suflete pierdute, doua drumuri incurcisate. Ma doare si ma intreb tot eu am gresit? Tot eu am reusit sa te indepartez? 

Un sarut se termina prea repede acum,am uitat sa oprim timpul. Ce ironic. O atingere,cat am asteptat-o,dar de ce nu o simt la fel?

Te iubesc,am spus,spun din nou,te iubesc,auzi,zambesti. Cate lucruri imi spui cand ma privesti,vai cat de mult as vrea sa stiu ce vrei defapt,ma folosesti?
Ma lasi sa cred ca e real,ma faci sa cred ca totul o sa fie asa dar de ce tu esti diferit? Oare ea te-a schimbat? Oare ai uitat ca ma iubesti? Oare ai mintit? Simt tot,vad tot si cad in gol

Nu ma lasa sa plec,te-am rugat sa ma crezi,vreau sa ma iubesti si sa uiti de lumea din jurul tau. Spune-mi,simti ca ma iubesti? Simti ca vrei sa fi cu mine? Uiti cine sunt?
Sufletul urla in mine,te rog ajuta-ma sa plec de aici. Amintiri inghetate de timp,ma doare si nu-ti pasa. Te iubesc,ma auzi?

Poem by Autumn,Ghost

Did you know sometimes it frightens me
when you say my name and I can't see you
will you ever learn to materialize before you speak
impetuous boy, if that's what you really are
how many centuries since you've climbed a balcony
or do you do this every night with someone else
you tell me that you never leave
and I am almost afraid to believe it
why is it me you've chosen to follow
did you like the way I look when I am sleeping
was my hair more fun to tangle
are my dreams more entertaining
do you laugh when I'm complaining that I'm all alone
where were you when I searched the sea
for a friend to talk to me
in a year where will you be
is it enough for you to steal into my mind
filling up my page with music written in my hand
you know I'll take the credit for I must have made you come to me somehow
but please try to close the curtains when you leave at night
or I'll have to find someone to stay and warm me
will you always attend my midnight tea parties
as long as I set your place
if one day your sugar sits untouched
will you have gone forever
would you miss me in a thousand years
when you will dry another's tears
but you say you'll never leave me
and I wonder if you'll have the decency
to pass through my wall to the next room
while I dress for dinner
but when I'm stuck in conversation
with stuffed shirts whose adoration
hurts my ears, where are you then
can't you cut in when I dance with other men
it's too late not to interfere with my life
you've already made me a most unsuitable wife
for any man who wants to be the first his bride has slept with
and you can't just fly into people's bedrooms
then expect them to calmly wave goodbye
you've changed the course of history
and didn't even try
where are you now
standing behind me
taking my hand
come and remind me
who you are
have you traveled far
are you made of stardust too
are the angels after you
tell me what I am to do
but until then I'll save your side of the bed
just come and sing me to sleep

Anonim

Castel - ruine,paradis
Amortita,dintr-un vis
Am inima pe cer,
Iar minea blestemata
Cu totul drag din jurul meu -
Amintire,uitata.
M-a putut dezlega mereu -
De-o viata minunata.

Si am culori in capul meu
Si inima taiata
De tot ce tu ai spus mereu -
De lumea,cea uitata.

Ma taie -
Strapunge usor,
In pielea-mi firava.
Dar totul este trecator
Iubirea e-o povara.
Si cerul -
M-a vazut de sus,
Mi-a pus o intrebare
Iar eu,usor am spus -
"Nu merg in continuare"

S-a uitat la mine
Si-a plecat -
Am stat cu tine
Am aflat
Am mintea blestemata.

Ma pierd cu totu-n paradis -
Cu turnuri si ruine.

Iubit de catifea

Iubire,catifea
Pe limba mea
Se-asterne alb -
In mintea mea.

Iubire,cer inchis
Plutesti acum
In nori de fum,
Cu albastru deschis.

Sarut,catifelat -
Eu am sperat.
E frig,e nea -
Iubire,catifea.

Te simt,te vad
Te chem,tu pleci...
Pe lacrimi albe, lilieci -
Destinul meu,nu-l vad...

Iubire,portelan -
Eu am plecat,
N-ai asteptat,
Incet te-ai spart.

Si tot aud
Usor in gand -
"Iubire,catifea
Pe limba mea..."

What does love mean?

Momentul in care m-ai atins lumea s-a prabusit peste mine. Ce te face pe tine atat de perfect? Ochii,buzele,corpul,gandirea? Tu. Esti totul. Esti unicul si tot ce mai pot gandi acum. Am stat si am asteptat si caldura m-a curpins,nu era un plan,nu era de asteptat si tu ai venit,m-ai blocat,m-ai iubit,ma iubesti. Tremur,nu simt nimic,nu gandesc,nu vreau sa pleci.

Un singur cuvant ai spus si totul sa blocat,ma tineai de mana si lumea din jurul meu disparea. Ma sarutai si nu mai puteam auzi nimic,ma faci sa tremur. Ma faci sa iubesc si ma faci sa sper. Mi-e frica acum ca ce simt se va pierde in timp si ca tu vei pleca dar te cred ca nu pleci,te cred si mi-e frica. 

Am asteptat mult timp si de ce as fi ranita din nou?

"Te iubesc" am spus si usor te-a incercuit,ai zambit si mi-ai raspuns. M-am pierdut,ce puteam sa fac? Te-am sarutat,nu cred ca e real. Nu cred ca existi. Ma iubesti?

Vorbeai cu mine si-mi zambeai,nu am crezut. Esti perfect. Suntem perfecti. Dar vreau sa te vad acum,vreau sa te simt,vreau sa te sarut,vreau ca momentul in care te vad si esti langa mine sa se opreasca iar tu sa nu mai pleci niciodata. Imi promiti? "Te iubesc" si usa se inchide,si mintea se blocheaza,inima mea bate iar gandurile o iau razna. Vocea ta ma face sa tremur si te ascult atenta,stiu ce vrei sa-mi zici. Nu vreau sa plec de aici fara tine. Chipul tau ma inconjoara si un dor puternic ma loveste,mi-e frica sa nu cad. Stau si privesc in gol si tu ma ti in brate.

Ce te face pe tine atat de perfect?

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